Goodbye my lover. [28-1-10]

I dedicate this poem to M. Thanks for the unforgettable memories. Wish you were still here..

Your fingertips across my skin.
The palm trees swaying in the wind.
In my chest.
You sang me Spanish lullabies.
The sweetest sadness in your eyes.
Clever trick.

I never want to see you unhappy.
I thought you want the same for me.
Goodbye my long lost lover,
Goodbye my hopeless dream,
I'm trying not to think about you.
Can't you just let me be.
So long my luckless romance,
My back is turned on you.
Should i known you'd bring me heartache.
Almost lovers always do.

We walked along a crowded street.
You took my hand and dazzled me,
In a dream.
And when you left,
You kissed my lips.
You told me you would never ever forget these memories.

I never want to see you unhappy.
I thought you want the same for me.
Goodbye my long lost lover,
Goodbye my hopeless dream,
I'm trying not to think about you.
Can't you just let me be.
So long my luckless romance,
My back is turned on you.
Should i known you'd bring me heartache.
Almost lovers always so.

I cannot go to the ocean,
I cannot drive the streets at night.
I cannot wake-up in the mornings,
Without you on my mind.
So your gone and I'm haunted,
And I'll bet you would just like.
Do I make it that easy?
For you to walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye my almost lover.
Goodbye my hopeless dream.
I'm trying not to think about you.
Can't you just let me be.
So long my luckless romance,
My back is turned on you.
Should I've known you'd bring me heartache.
Almost lovers always do.

A year passed since i last saw you. A year passed since i last felt your presence. A year passed since you were here. But you're still in my heart. Time has passed and i still cant forget what I've done to you, All i need is just a simple assurance of not forgetting our past. Our past is the only memory i have left, its my only treasure box. I'm letting go, gotta move on to tomorrow. I promise you'll always be in my heart! Love you till outer space and back..

(28-1-10) Marat sanah.

-7arfel3ain*

If you really knew me..

f you really knew me, you'd know how much I've cried.
You'd see how much I've kept built up inside.
If you really knew me, you'd know all my fears.
You'd know that I never had anyone to wipe away my tears.

If you really knew me, you'd know how I really feel.
You'd know that I can't seem to let the old wounds heal.
If you really knew me, then this you would know.
You'd know that there have been nights I've come close to letting go.

If you really knew me, you would look me in the eyes.
You'd know how I really felt and would look past my lies.
If you really knew me, you'd know what goes on behind closed doors.
You'd know that I feel like in my world it doesn't rain, it pours.

If you really knew me, you'd know that in my world the glass is never half full.
You'd know that sometimes I feel that I won't be in this world for the long haul.
If you really knew me, you'd find you really didn't know me at all.
You'd know about the countless hours I spent crying curled up in a ball.

If you really knew me you'd know I am strong because I am weak.
You'd know that I have hit my lowest peak.
If you really knew me, you'd know I am fighting my way back to the top.
You'd know that there is no way I am letting this fight in me stop.

If you really knew me you'd know I am fighting to stay strong.
You'd know that I am no longer doing my body wrong.
If you really knew me you'd know that I am in a better place.
You'd know that my drive to get better is at a slow and steady pace.

If you really knew me, you'd know I am no longer hiding behind the sorrow.
You'd know I am living for a better tomorrow.
If you really knew me, you would know I am in a better state of mind.
You'd know I have left the old version of myself behind.